And we know that in all things God works for the good of those that love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28

Monday, April 18, 2011

Hello Spring....Hello Tears!

The beginning of spring brings about so many blooming, grass growing, kids playing outside, sun shining, birds singing...

For some reason, I've also found that spring is a very difficult time to be a "baby loss Momma". I'm not sure if it's all the new life blooming or all the mommy's pushing strollers, but spring has a way of reminding me of what I'm missing out on. I wrote about it last Easter, and you can read that entry here.

This year is infinitely more easy than last spring, but the pain is still there. There are still moments that it hits me so hard that I feel like I can't breathe. I still desperately long to be pushing my Kinley in a stroller, taking her to the park, and showing her the flowers.

While I was in Indiana for a short, last-minute, visit, Brenna and I decided to take out a few items to "decorate" Kinley's gravesite. Here's Brenna doing a little decorating...

We also took Bristol along for her first visit to Kinley's "special place" (as Brenna calls it). Bristol slept through the visit!

For those Mommy's who are experiencing your first spring since losing your child, my heart breaks for you! Hold on through this spring, next year will be easier!!!


  1. Love you! Love these girls!! Only wish we had our Kinley to ejoy as well. Some sweet day... Aunt Tee Tee

  2. Love you, my sweet granddaughter. You are my sunshine, always have been and always will be. Love you so much and these times of tears will get fewer and fewer. Not because you won't still be missing your little angel but because time heals our wounds. God is keeping her in His care and she's still alive, even though we can't see her. In another realm, she's blossoming and waiting on her mama and daddy and those of us that miss her so, to one day love on her and enjoy her. Oh what a day that will be. No more tears or sadness, only joy forever more. Love you and Jacob so much.
    Mamaw Fairchild