Just Enough Strength

As I near Kinley's 2nd birthday, I find myself right back in the middle of an entire storm of emotion. On Thursday, it will have been 2 years since I heard the words "we can't find a heartbeat". And on Saturday it will be two years since we first saw Kinley's sweet face. The full gravity of how different I am today than I was on those days can't even be explained by words. As a matter of fact, this year, I'm finding myself at a total loss for words. What words can I possibly say (or type) that will capture the full depth of my feelings? There are none!

And yet, I've found myself being constantly caught up in and encouraged by the music that I've been listening to. Sometimes a song will state my emotion better than I can even do it myself! Some time ago, I started listening to pretty much exclusively Christian music. I can't tell you what a HUGE decision that has turned out to be for me. The music you listen to may seem insignificant, but it's what you're putting into your heart! If you're a Christian, I highly recommend committing to only listen to Christian music, even if it's just for a specified amount of time. Try it for a week or a month, you'll be surprised how God uses it...

Sometimes I listen and even sing along, but don't really "hear" the words. Sometimes the words hit me as if God Himself were speaking them directly to me. Today, I heard this song and it so captured my thoughts...

I want all that's Yours

Joy unspeakable that won't go away

And just enough strength

To live for today

So I never have to worry

What tomorrow will bring

Cause my faith is on solid rock

And I am counting on God

How true those words felt today! I want that joy unspeakable! And to be honest, even through my darkest days, the joy of the Lord was there. "And just enough strength to live for today!" Thank you Jesus for enough strength to just get through the day. I don't have to worry about Thursday or Saturday because my faith is solid and I'm counting on God to be there. And He will, with just enough strength for that day!!