And we know that in all things God works for the good of those that love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Wait, What Did You Just Say??

Two years ago this week, I had a horrible appointment with my fertility doctor.  I felt like the bottom had dropped out of my life and I wasn't sure I would ever find my footing again.  You can read the post here ...

Basically, the doctor said doing another IUI would be a waste of money.  My body wouldn't respond to the medicine, which means that doing IVF was also basically a waste of money.  He said I "might" have a 20% chance of IVF working, but for the amount of money it would cost, that would be very risky.  He basically suggested that I stay on a low dose of medicine for the rest of my life and "hope" that someday it works.  He gave me about a 5% chance of ever having another child.  Ouch!

I was crushed beyond belief, I was confused, I was angry, most of all I was hurt.  Why would God give me this deep desire to be a Mommy and then not let it be fulfilled?  I remember having a conversation with my Mom and then hanging up and realizing that I was losing hope.  I had told her that I felt like maybe I had misunderstood what God had promised me and that maybe getting pregnant wasn't ever in the cards for me again.

That was 2 years forward....

Today I type this email with THE sweetest baby girl sleeping peacefully in the next room.  God not only fulfilled His promise, but he fulfilled every dream I had for my baby.  I love my Emmy Kate so much! I prayed the entire pregnancy for a baby "filled with joy, that will bring joy to others", and WOW is she ever a bundle of joy!!  As if that joy isn't enough....

Today I also sit here with another little miracle growing away inside of me!! Yep, you read that right, we're expecting another baby!!!! I'm 8 weeks pregnant.  We'll be welcoming the newest member to the Crum family at the end of September.

Jacob and I are thrilled beyond belief and so thankful to God for His miracles, His healing, and the life that He has given.  Although we were technically "trying" to get pregnant, we definitely did not expect it to happen as quickly as it did!  In fact, I didn't feel like we were really trying yet at all!

Because it took 2 years with Emersyn and because the diagnosis I was given made time very important, we knew we would want to start trying to have another baby soon.  We expected another long journey!  I went on a very low dose of medicine (half of the dose I took to get pregnant with Em).  I had told the doctor we would start the medicine to "get my body back in the habit" of trying. After spring break, we would talk about adding the follicle scan and shot to make me ovulate.  BUT, God had bigger plans, and I got pregnant the very first month!!!

We are shocked and excited! I'm also just as nervous as I was last time!  We appreciate your prayers for a smooth pregnancy and another healthy baby!


  1. Your mamaw can't stop smiling ever since you told Papaw and I. Just so wonderful. God still works his miracles. Praying for a safe and healthy pregnancy for you and little peanut. Love you and Jacob so much.
    Mamaw Fairchild

  2. Hi Erica! I have never met you, but I saw this blog being shared on my friends FB and it lead me to read your story. I am in awe!! What an amazing journey you have been on and such an emotional roller coaster as well. It was up lifting to read in a way, since I have miscarried twice and scared of what may happen again. Amazing how you have found strength and kept the faith thru all the hard ache. I will keep the Faith in Hopes of holding a sweet baby girl or boy in near future! Best wishes to you and prayers for a healthy pregnancy.

  3. Erica, I am so happy for you all! As we circled our children in prayer just a few weeks ago I believed that your dreams would be answered! So happy for you that God chose to do sooner instead of later in this case! Rejoicing with you!

  4. Overjoyed for you and Jacob! As I read this I started tearing up in the same way as I did when I saw that video for the first time. God has great plans for your family! Praying for you and this little one.

  5. Erica I am so excited for you! It is amazing what God can do that people say is impossible! I pray that you have a safe and easy pregnancy and another beautiful little baby full of joy! Our God is a God of miracles and big plans!!! Congratulations!!!!!!!!