And we know that in all things God works for the good of those that love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Job 8:21

"He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy." Job 8:21

Today is 10 months since my baby girl was stillborn. I can't believe it's been 10 months. In some ways, it seems like an eternity, and in some ways it seems like only yesterday. It's easy to let your mind go to the "what might have beens". Today, I'm choosing (and I really do mean choosing, because it's a choice I have to make sometimes) to look back and think about just how far I've come. My days of intense grief, the kind when I don't feel like I can get out of bed, are fewer and further between. I'm not AS scared to hope again. I'm closer to God than I think I've ever been in my life. And I laugh again....the real kind of silliness and laughter that I just couldn't bring myself to do at first. Case in point.....

The Crum's are here visiting and we are having so much fun! Here's just a snapshot of our first day together in Knoxville.

Lunch Dowtown

A trip to the Sunsphere, where Becca discovered a new hat!

The sticker says "It's a Puppy!" We don't know why! But we stuck it on Becca's back and she didn't know it until we got home! :)

And some GREAT fun at the Candy Factory...notice how much fun Jacob is having!

My point is, I still miss Kinley every day! I would much rather have had her here with us today to share all of these things with her, but God does "yet fill your mouth with laughter". I can still have a really good day, and I did!

Thank you God for a wonderful family and for this "glimpse" of the fun and laughter that we'll someday enjoy WITH Kinley in Heaven.

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones"
Proverbs 17:22

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  1. I love you! You are truly amazing! So glad to hear you are enjoying the company. Hugs (and big slobbery kisses from Cayden)

  2. You continue to be such a blessing to so many. Continue to let God use you and be blessed by Him. Keeping you in my prayers and looking forward to your "Joy in the morning!" Love you so much - Aunt Christy