Hello faithful blog readers!! Sorry I've been so MIA recently. I wish I could come back with an inspiring and encouraging post, but unfortunately you're not going to get that from me today!
I started my new fertility drug and all I can really say is ... UGHHH!! I hope it works, but it's AWFUL! I would honestly rather take the injections nightly than deal with the side effects from the new medicine. I have a horrible headache from the moment I wake up in the morning and spend the whole day waiting for the next hot flash that will leave me drenched in sweat! Lovely, just lovely. And they expect me to feel like..., you know, "TRYING"! Yikes!
So anyway, I only have to take the medicine two more days and then I'm done with it, so I'm hoping that the effects stop when I stop taking the daily dose. I'll have an ultrasound next Wednesday to see how many follicles we're working with this month and if they medication worked to thicken my lining. I'll keep you all updated. Pray, pray, pray for several good follicles!
In other news, my stress level is through the roof! I am really not handling the stresses of life well. In dealing with the infertility and the move to Tennessee (yes I realize it was 4 months ago, but I'm not settled yet), I'm losing my mind....no really, I think I am. I came to the realization today that there's absolutely NO way I'll get pregnant when I'm this much of a mess emotionally. I'm constantly either crying or fighting the urge to cry. I feel sorry for myself and don't understand why nothing in my life seems be working out...something has got to give!!! I'm so very homesick, I miss my baby girl, and I can't believe I'm still not pregnant! Please pray for some relief for me and maybe even a little dose of joy!!
By the way, both my Grandpa Bill and Jacob's Grandma Joan are still in the hospital and could use your prayers as well.
Thank you, thank you, thank you for all the prayers and support!!!